Happy throwback Thursday! I started writing this post in 2019 and never finished it. I wanted to share it, because I think it’s a solid post and I think it’s important to share things that maybe I didn’t fully succeed at…
As many of you know, I’m in two wedding this fall and attending seven weddings overall this year – I know, it’s a year of love baby! Wedding rules are pretty simple, if you’re a bridesmaid, you buy a dress, shoes, get your nails, hair, and make up done and honestly, at the end of the day, it’s not about you…at all. But, as bridesmaids, we do all of these things because we’re in those photos, so we need to look good. We put on whatever dress the bride tells us and we do whatever hairstyle, because we love them and want their vision to come true. But again, we also want to look good.
So, the other day I tried on one of my bridesmaid dresses and it was a little snug. It fit…but it was snug.
“I’m going to eat and drink SO much more on the wedding day then today…this isn’t going to work…”
“Just stay zipped, that’s the overall goal, right?”
“From this angle I don’t look like I’m squeezing myself into the dress…right?”
All of these thoughts were sprinting through my head as I looked in the mirror trying to decide next steps.
“It’s fine, I’ll go to the gym tomorrow morning and all will be fine.”
“I’ll add a few more apples into my diet and things will turn around.”
I like to lie to myself when I’m stressed, can’t you see? I wasn’t sure how I wanted to go about getting healthier and ultimately fitting more comfortably in my dress, until I thought about my dad who recently lost over 50 pounds just from counting his calories.
So, I started counting my calories using the app my dad used. And this lasted for about two weeks.
That’s it…that’s all I wrote. I’m going to be honest, counting calories helps people create good habits of portion control and being mindful of what you eat. For me, it made me grumpy, stressed, and filled with constant shame. As many know, I struggle with how I diet, the view of my body, and how I feel on a day to day basis. Every day I work to have a good relationship with food and exercise. So I stopped writing this post because I couldn’t stick to counting calories. Even though I know it works.
I can be my own worst enemy, but I can also be my rescuer. I chose to work toward being kind to myself, figure out portion control and healthy choices on my own, and keep working to it every day, even when I fail.
Thanks for reading my throwback post,