This was not my year. It was 100% not about me and what I wanted. It was humbling. I hit a point where I was frustrated, angry, and annoyed that I wasn’t able to make one decision with only myself in mind. Then I realized that’s part of growing up; by including other people in your life and recognizing that the world doesn’t revolve around you. Yet, even with this realization, I still deem 2019 as one of my least favorite years. The feeling of being stagnant, unable to move forward or grow, limited me in so many ways this year and I want to make sure that stays in 2019.
Some highlights of 2019:
- Three of my best friends got married
- I rescued a dog – lil Baxter
- I saw my sister multiple times
- I was able to travel to Texas twice
- My best friend welcomed a baby boy, who I love dearly
- I went to seven weddings & witnessed a lot of love
- I became a “runner” for a month & want to continue
- I wrote blog posts that took time & dedication outside of writing
- I felt creatively blocked
- I had zero free time
- My birthday was the worst
- I got into a car accident
- I spent more than I saved
- I struggled with my confidence over and over again
Looking to 2020, I’m already excited. I can just feel this new year (& new decade!) will be one for the books. Am I setting my expectations too high? Most likely. Will I re-evaluate in the coming year? Absolutely. Will I be disappointed in the outcome of 2020? I don’t think so. I’m putting my faith into a good year to come. With a dog by my side, an open calendar, and specific trips in the planning stages, I know this year will already prove to be better.
I’ve been thinking long and hard about my resolutions for 2020, simply because I look back to my resolutions for 2019 and I’m disappointed with how I did.
- Give more
- Write with a purpose
- Find a new hobby
- Positive Talk
- Try new foods
I can confidently check off two on that list. I intentionally selected five resolutions because I figured “heck, I never complete a long list of resolutions, so let’s narrow it down to focus on.” HA. Yeah didn’t do that. Good try though, Casie. You found a new hobby in running and hopefully Baxter can begin to join you on runs in the spring. You tried some new foods and tried a new restaurant each month – so kudos for that. Otherwise, I think I struggled in every other aspect. Which is okay. But next year, I want to do better.
Next week, I’m going to share my resolutions for 2020!
Looking forward to the new year with all of you.
Thanks for reading,
P.S. Here’s my 2019 best nine!