Winter is officially over here in Minnesota (unless we get another April snowstorm, but let’s really hope and pray that doesn’t happen), which means my mood is significantly better now…kind of. If I’m being honest with y’all (when am I not?), I’m struggling right now. Life has been going in completely different directions than I thought it would/planned and adjusting my mindset has been tough.
Which is why I didn’t post last week. I had no ideas and hadn’t lined up a guest blogger in time to take over for the week. I haven’t been this creatively frustrated in a while. I haven’t been in the mood to write, draw, doodle, and simply create for weeks now. At first, I was assuming it was because I was in my seasonal funk. Winter always brings me down and I normally struggle to find a good outlet during that time.
However, this time is different. I’m not only creatively frustrated, I’m just overall frustrated. I haven’t been able to get myself awake in the mornings to go to the gym, which we all know makes me feel better. I haven’t been reaching out to friends to hang out. I haven’t been in the mood to do almost anything.
So, tonight I’m forcing myself to just write it out. I’m not sure if this will help me or if it will amplify my frustrations, but no harm in trying.
Tomorrow I’m taking a personal day from work because I mentally needed a day to care for myself. Work is the least of my problems right now, I’m loving my job and everything I’m doing. It’s been good and busy and I’m learning so much – it’s the place where I feel the most myself right now. So, kind of strange to be taking time off of my current happy place…but here we are.
I’m currently on the hunt for a new apartment (thank the Lord!) because my lease ends at the end of May. A couple curveballs were thrown my way this week about my living situation, so the stress is a little higher than normal. Also, have I ever mentioned on here that I hate where I currently live? So the stress is even higher to find a place I could move to ASAP, even if that means breaking my bank and paying double rent for a month or two…
My problems are minimal in the grand scheme of life and I’m going to look back at this time and wish I had cherished it more…spent less time stressing and complaining. I’m trying to take it one day at a time and be grateful for the little moments.
I’m thankful for my parents, who take every stressed out phone call, meet me for dinner when it’s 45 minutes out of their way, encourage me to take care of myself first, and still keep me humble with an amazing and shocking amount of sarcasm.
I’m thankful for my coworkers/friends who listen to every long winded story. Who remind me my feelings are valid and it’s okay to feel stressed, encouraged me to take a day off of work to give myself a mental break, and welcome me in with smiles every day and make my life significantly brighter.
And I’m thankful for whoever reads this. Whether you’re criticizing my writing, empathizing with me, or reading out of obligation (sup dad), it doesn’t matter. I appreciate you and thank you for sticking by me as I navigate life.
This week has been a down…so hopefully we’re on an up next week.
Thanks for reading,
P.S. I want to get some guest bloggers going again – so if you’re interested…let me know.